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so gutted

2006-07-02T21:12:15+02:00

im soo gutted england are out of da world cup, i felt like crying, it was such a real tense moment as the penalty shootouts were being taken, and unfortanutly portugal shot 3 in the net and well we only got 1.

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what a hell of a night

2006-06-26T12:11:04+02:00

i had a really good night last night, i had a laugh and i let myself go for once and let myself and my personality shine more. i blazed a few zoots so i was like real mashed and i was just being myself. i know people say that cannibis is addictive but i disagree i dnt think the drug is addictive, but the buzz. its all about the buzz you get, the reasons why i smoke cannibis
1, i relax more
2, it makes me happy
3, it changes my mood
4, makes me horny sometimes
5, helps me sleep
6, helps block out annoying people
7, makes me laugh
8, makes me tell bare jokes
9, come out with random things
10, makes people see the real me

they're my reasons for smoking, the only downfall is waking up da next morning feeling rough as shit like i am today i wouldnt advise anyone to do it but if you wana do it then do it, like everyone experiments with everything to do with life like sex etc. anyway think i best go, im proper giving it into ur earpieces now huh lol

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wedding bells

2006-06-24T15:59:06+02:00

everyone i know that has either got married or getting married think about big flowers, loud heart felt music, massive church, big party and all that. people watching the bride walk down the aisle in a white wedding dress that resembles a meringue. why do people do dat? i mean why do people feel the need to get married just to prove to someone you love them, but then again marriage aint exactly proof is it, i mean both men and women have affairs so them vows they said to each other at the alter dissapear like they were never there. all i know is, is that if i ever get married which is very unlikely id do it at a registry office or i would just change my name by depol, alot easier and less fuss. less is more so they say aint it

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have u eva

2006-06-21T18:15:00+02:00

have you ever been close to someone and they went away
and you walk around just wishing they'd have stayed
have you ever felt so close you thought it was love
and everytime you saw them it was heavens above
have you ever loved someone so much that you felt whole
and they knew inside and out the deph of your heart and soul
have you ever felt like you was gonna curl up and die
coz everyone believed this love thing was a lie
have you ever looked to your heart and found it was bruised
through all the times youve been hurt and used
have you ever felt ecstasy whilst having sex
then you find thats all they wanted and its left you vexed
have you ever felt like youve lost all your dreams
coz someone came along and drained all your streams
have you ever felt that your whole life has been for nothing
from when nasty people tell you that you'll never be something
have you ever felt like you've lost your best friend
when they moved away, left you feeling its the end
have you ever felt that you was well past your sell by date
from all the feelings of that crazy thing called hate
have you ever felt like you have absolutely nothing to live for
when nobody gave a fuck wheather you walked out da front door
have you ever felt nobody gave a fuck full stop
and they'll only care when you take that 800ft drop
have you ever wished that you should never have been born
coz all your life your heart carries on getting torn
have you ever felt that people ppush you to one side
because you cant find the words to explain how you feel inside
have you ever felt that you was the most hated girl
because not now not ever will you be able to fit in this fucked up world
have you ever felt you dont belong and you dunno what to do
coz all you want is for someone to mean it when they say i love you

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both sides of the fence

2006-06-20T15:16:40+02:00

im a girl, who lives on both sides of the fence so therefore im bi-sexual, sexuality leads to alot of confusion. i was a little confused but i always knew i liked girls as well as boys, i never told anybody coz i was scared they would laugh and i wernt having people takin the piss outta me, so i fought it long and hard, but thought there is no point in keepin on fighting it, i am what i am.
the first time i ever had sexual encounters with a girl, i was really nervous, i knew what to do but i kept thinking am i good enough?, is she enjoying it? i must say though, before i had my encounter i was quite scared and ok im admitting it, i was scared of going down on a girl. my fears neednt of been coz i liked it. i loved the thought of pleasuring a woman damn site better than the thought of pleasuring a man. now im a little older and i still love my girls and my boys. xxxxx

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londoners not all racist

2006-06-12T17:23:58+02:00

i wana take the time to stick up for some londoners out there who get looked at funny, cussed hardcore and not stick up for themselves, some of us get bullied coz others think we are bullies by thinking we are racist. london is da most multi-cultural city in england, for example we have indians, asians, chinese, irish, scottish, welsh, greek, italian, turkish, curdish, somalian etc. you namer it we have it. i aint got nuttin against any one coz im too nice a person, but i do have my principles and my understandings that, all other ethnicity should take into account what the country has done and provided for them, but no they still not satisfied, we busted our balls, to get work, and to set up religious things for them ie: churches and stuff, but they come over all ungrateful. if we went to another country, would they bust their balls in getting a christian, catholic etc churches, no they wouldnt. thats my explaining done bout not all londoners being racist. xx

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grief

2006-06-11T15:36:44+02:00

grief is something im rather familiar with. i lost someone real close to me, my father. he was my best friend. i was a proper little daddy's girl, even tho i was a terror. i was 12 when he died and i was never the same person since. not blaming my father's death for my aggression and depression and stuff but it was one of the causes. i still think of my dad today and wonder what he thinks of me now that im grown up, not happy but put on a front, thats all i am, front. i have these barriers that block me outta people. if i dnt let anyone in, i cant get hurt, but im a loving person. i like hearing other peoples problems than sit down and face mine, is that silly? i still kinda havent come to terms with it, i know its been nearly 7 yrs, and people told me it gets easier as u get older but what complete and utter bollocks, if someone brings u up for 12 years of ur life and ur close to that person, then they die, ur faced with not being able to ever see them again, not ever. not their smile, cant hear their laugh, not hold their hand, not play footie in the park, nothing. how can it get easier, i find it gets harder, maybe i have trouble grieving im not sure. i did cry but ive not really let it all out. before my dad died, i never told him how much i love him and that he will always be my bestest friend, wish i could tell him and he hear me.

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WORLD CUP WINNERS=ENGLAND

2006-06-10T16:11:57+02:00

god save our gracious queen,
long live our noble queen,
god save the queen
send her victorious
happy and glorious
long to rain over us god save the queen.
we fucking done it, beat yet another
we have faith in our men
england will show germany who's cup that is by playing the best they can and doing it for their country.
CMON ENGLAND !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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randomness

2006-06-08T12:30:50+02:00

well, im cuting down on my fags today, only coz i have to, well no backa (tobacco) bare rizlas and a lighter running on air, wot a perfect day, i had to roll up some doggies at home coz u no how desperate measures go and lucky for me there are quite a few doggies coz i was rolling up my fag wen a mouse ran acros my floor, made me jump and hey presto tobacco all over the carpet, i felt like crying and in the end i did, but crying didnt do much help so i rolled another fag and smoked that, still didnt feel better, so made a coffee with no sugar yuk!!!! gotta have 3 sugs in da coffee, oh i forgot to tell u, yes i have mice, have had them for ages, they bit a hole in the carpet and did live in the floorboards, so as i said no fags, no sugar at home and got mice and to top it off aint had no sleep, them FUCKING MICE KEEP ME AWAKE AT NIGHT, I CANT SLEEP. I NEED SLEEP! IM GOING FUCKING MAD!!!!!

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numbness in pain

2006-06-04T00:23:13+02:00

im drowning in a flood of my own tears
reminising bout da been and past years
people tell ya move on and forget
easier sed than done, easy to talk wet.
i feel like im in ireland trying a find a four leaf clover
my eyes wide open, and feel there lifes almost over
ya no i feel so incomplete
feel relieved when i feel my heartbeat
sometimes people dont care bout anything
but i care bout everyone and everything ive seen
maybe one day il crawl out of dis numbness in pain
and search for dat girl i no i can be again

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stabbing at shopping city

2006-06-02T15:21:07+02:00

hey guys well on wednesday someone got stabbed in wood green shopping city and although i never witnessed it, i saw the boy running from 2 security guards, of course they lost him, dunno about the person that got stabbed, but i couldnt get home in the night time after leaving a mates, they blocked alot of the road of. whatever went on, stabbing is just cowardly why dont ppl men fight like men anymore (with fists) and then shake hands and become best buddies huh? what is this world coming to, sometimes i wish i was from a different planet xxxx

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me mates

2006-05-31T16:17:02+02:00

hello to all my lovely blog pals, jesus i missed u guys, i know, i know, funny tomorrow wernt it. im happy i mean really happy, i got paid, got u my pals and wot more i need to get laid , big brother is gripping me, but dont that sam bloke look like a woman? soz guys and gals, coffee calling me so i guess its love ya and leave ya, check u soon. mwah xxxx

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see you soon

2006-05-28T21:28:34+02:00

goodbye all my blog pals, will be back either tomorrow or the day after, i reckon we should all link you no, i think it would be great, you all are amazing, even the things u write, are amazing, but i gotta go, u have a think and get back to me ok. love you all xxxxxxxx

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london life

2006-05-27T20:09:04+02:00

london is the life, it maybe rough in some areas but its a thing u get used to, ppl only go on raw with u if u go on raw with them, they dnt ramp. its ghetto tho, bare manz and galdem bun zoots so u kinda like get in with dem and u make friends, all u need to do is try not to pull a whitey, ul get laughed at. u get bare old men try it on with da yongsters so as we walk pass we yell nonse, its true tho. i hate dat word but some men think dey can get a way with murder in london, and to be truthful some of them men do, on the level. anyway dunno wot else to say about my loving london lol so im gona kick love yall xx

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out in the dark

2006-05-26T13:59:54+02:00

sat in the corner all on my own,
no heart i could call a home
sat in the corner fantasizing of a different world
most of the time wishing i wasnt a girl
wishing i was a boy, who shows no emotion
shows no fear, dont start no commotion
yeah im left out in the dark
waiting for my flame to ignite a spark
watching young couples loving and kissing
makes me realize what ive been missing
i wanna find someone who is lovely
also someone to appreciate me
ive always been a sucker for the losers
the deceptive tossers, let me give them bruises
im gonna find someone who accepts who i am
and if they dont then i dont give a damn
coz no matter how many times i get knocked back
i never give in, i will always come back
i always go back to the ones who treat me mean
but that saying is bollocks, the treat them mean keep them keen
im stuck in a rutt, i cant escape
the awful feeling that im starting to hate
ive come along way, only to go bck to my old ways
out in the dark looking for brighter days

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gotta shoot now

2006-05-25T16:01:52+02:00

hey my blogging mates i have to go now but i will be back tomorrow and fil u in on my events, keep smilin coz u no who u are and i love ya very much, til tomorrow bless guys xxxx

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read a shag list blog, ima do 1

2006-05-25T15:43:35+02:00

right well first off i would like to shag................................
1, colin farrell (absolutely hot stuff in phone booth)
2, keanu reeves (plain fuckable)
3, nigel harman (cmon girls we all want a bit of dennis from easties, but he left, oh how i cried lol)
4, eminem (he can lay them raps on me all day and night)
5, antonio benderes ( i think das how u spell da name, but yeah id give him a go)

now for da girls who would i wana close encounter with hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
1, kate winslet (beautiful from head to foot)
2, lacey turner (stace from eastenders is 101% buff)
3, lindsay lohan (phwooooooooooor)
4, hilary duff (another phwoooooooooooor)
5, alicia moore (pink fucking rocks and is quite hot)
6, christina aguilera (dat girl is AMAZING)

Right dats all for me coz i cant think, there are too many but this will do i guess. cheers love y'all xxx

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wots wrong with gingers huh????

2006-05-25T15:28:53+02:00

ok guys i was feeling in a good mood til some idiotic twat thought he would shout abuse to me from his car, it is london but still, there is no need to be as raw as that. yeah i am ginger, people pass to many judgements and comments for whatever reason. i always get faced with these sad dickheads that quite frankly think it is a bubble to rip the piss outta ppl. ok blondes and brunettes are beautiful, but at the end of the day we are all human and shoulsd start acting like it. i hate ppl that go on by what someone looks like and if only they knew me properly they would see that and a genuine, honest, loving, caring and kind person, but noooooooo they dont wana do that because they aint got the back bone for it. sometimes i wish some of them men out there would pay more attention in getting to no a girl than thinking about gettin head or getting a leg over. granted most men out there are pretty decent but i can guarantee dat i aint changing the way i look for men, women or anybody, this is me and as i say to many a ppl if ya dnt like it, dnt look. cheers my peeps xx

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messed up

2006-05-23T17:16:58+02:00

today is such a fucking mess, i mean, im so down in the dumps right now. ii had to walk from wood green, where i live all the way to camden coz im absolutely brassic (skint) im also really into someone right now and i find it hard to fixate my mind on anything else. im in a proper switching mood, and need to get this off my chest....................... FUCKING HELL:-[" class="middle" border="0">,FUCK:-[" class="middle" border="0">,SHIT:-[" class="middle" border="0">,COCK SUCKING:-[" class="middle" border="0">,WANKING:-[" class="middle" border="0">,TIT WANK:-[" class="middle" border="0">, BOLLOCK CHOPS:-[" class="middle" border="0">, CHIEF:-[" class="middle" border="0">, LEMON:-[" class="middle" border="0">, MANGO MUNCHING MONKEY:-[" class="middle" border="0">, DASH YOU OVER A 28TH FLOOR LIKE IT WAS BUNJIE" class="middle" border="0">!!!!!!!!!!!!! phew i let it all out now, thanks for reading and listening love ya'll bless xxxx

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hello guys

2006-05-22T14:13:20+02:00

hey all, wots up!!!!!! im not doing alot myself jus writing this and wishing i could cruel back into my bed lol my eyes feel like they need matchsticks to keep them open so i guess i just wanted to say wots up to everyone and bless really, ok im out catcha laters

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why

2006-05-21T19:24:16+02:00

why do i feel like im falling from the sky
why do u make me feel on a high
why do i hide behind a smile
why cant you stay a little while
why do i miss you wen ur not around
why do i worship ur walking ground
why do i feel so in love with you
is it fantasies or is it true
i feel like im in a big dream
well thats how it seems
why do i feel the need to hide how i feel
i guess to a certain extent it is a big deal!!

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what a day

2006-05-21T19:17:33+02:00

today is obviously sunday, i stayed in bed til bare late coz last night i had a good one, bunned a few zoots, got da munchies real bad lol. so almost eat myself outta a house and home my brother nicked my last zoot this morning. oh well shit happens init, im over it now. im out bless

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spoke to ex girlfriend

2006-05-20T20:28:19+02:00

hey again.......... so much to say for myself i spoke to my ex girlfriend last night and this morning and i feel rather glad i did actually. we was talking like we aint bin apart and i feel thats a good thing, like having exs as a shoulder to cry on coz dey no u betta than ur former lover probably does. so u lover can be da one you go home with at night for a little bit of if ya get me.
trust my ex girl is so beautiful, her names jemma and she is a real good friend of mine and im glad we are still quite close i best go now coz chattin bare shit in ur earpiece lol ok im out now bless everyone

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my own song

2006-05-20T20:18:21+02:00

there's a girl that i know and i dont know where shes going
but i hope that the journey's not to hard
shes alot like my best friend da one ive come to know
i cant seem to ever let her go

oh michaela, will ya tell us wot ur dreaming
is it hard to wait for all that to come true
oh michaela, can you hear the future calling
i promise there are good things there for you
yes i promise there are good things there for you

when you look in the mirror, do you see the true reflection
do you see the girl that you can really be
its time to fly, spread your wings and soar up with the eagle
then you'll find the things your dreaming of

oh michaela, will ya tell us what your dreaming
is it hard to wait for all that to come true
oh michaela can you hear the future calling
i promise there are good things there for you
yes i promise there are good things there for you

repeat to fade

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people are so rude

2006-05-20T20:10:20+02:00

i wrote a blog not long ago about arsenal losing and some idiot claimed arsenal were gona lose anyway, they support liverpool, but no1 hears of me slaggin them down and jus bein damn rite nasty about them, maybe coz i have respect for whatever other ppl believe in. i believe in arsenal, they live in me and they always will, no matter what any1 says. gunners rule the FUCKING world yeah. bottom line......end of.....bless

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gunners lost

2006-05-18T16:04:20+02:00

hey guys, i cant believe it, my boys lost last night after barcelona beat us 2-1. out goalie lahman got sent off for something so petty, barcelona was going on more raw than wot we was and yet we kept gettin peenerlised. im so gutted we lost but considering wwe had 10 men we played north london style. maybe next time coz i feel we are going places we've never been before, i hope henry and pires dnt move to barca coz henry is our captain and a flamin wicked footballer, along with pires and reyes and campball etc. long live the gunners, i really and honestly thought we were going to gun down barcelona in paris but as the saying goes if it was meant to be then it would be, not for us this time

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cmon u gunners

2006-05-17T15:21:04+02:00

well tonight is da night dat arsenal play barcalona in paris im quite sure thierry henry will score our first goal then maybe fabregas or pires will score our second. ronaldiniho is a wicked player for barcalona and him and henry are close. but i know my gunners will do it. i think arsenal will win 2-1 well hope so. if we lose then we have come too far to jus let barcalona rip that from us. anyway how are you all, im jus really excited bout tonight so all u gunner fans out there shout out hi. bless xxx

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im real confused

2006-05-16T19:58:15+02:00

im sat here so confused, so confused
my heart broken, torn bruised
my world turned upside down, abused
my life feeling used
im sat here confused as hell
u never caught me wen i fell
i know im startin to dwell
but i wish my life i could sell
who would want the hurt deep inside my soul
like a footballer who misses a goal
black, blacker than coal
black just the colour black in my soul
my heart left bleedin to death
blood drainin from my body nearly none left
im so hurt, im angry at you, my god i love you
why you put me through the things you do.

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ive waited so long

2006-05-16T15:27:08+02:00

maybe one day i can have you for my own
and maybe your heart can be my permanant home
ive waited so long to hold you in my arms
wen u hold me i know im safe from harm
ive waited so long to hold your hand
wen we were apart my heart was got jammed
ive waited so long to taste up kiss
ur sweet, gentle brushing lips
ive waited so long to feel ur touch
i like it, i love it very much
ive waited so long to be ur girl
coz u r my whole wide world
ive waited so long for you to come to me
now you have im really happy
ive waited so long to whisper in ur ear
all the words ive wanted you to hear
ive waited so long to go to bed with you
coz i love you, i love you, i love you

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i love my mates

2006-05-15T22:10:17+02:00

ya know ive only jus written a blog but i gotta lot to say for myself today, ive made another friend suboh, i got mightymouse and roza_f, im happy bout that coz to be honest i didnt think anyone would wana read what i had to say and im glad they did. i love my mates i mean everyone of my friends even my bloggin mates coz ur all the reason i can get things off my chest without hesitating or bein worried what ppl might think, i have to go soon coz aint got my own computer and in the internet cafe (spend bare dough there) so ima love you and leave you, take care love ya'll xxxxxxx

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